Meanings and understandings

I spent the early parts of the day doing light hearted things, such as commenting on blogs in haiku form. Except when I got to Marly's latest post, I was seized to go beyond that form and flap my fingers. Then I started reading Velveteen Rabbi posts for this month that I've put off for quiet moments. Good thing I waited for quiet ones, although I hope I won't delay Rachel's blog so much in the future. This post is what I read most recently, and it made an impact.

While most of the Reading I've done this afternoon (not to be mistaken for small-r-reading which is just the normal internet stuff that flows easily, this is big-r-reading which takes time to settle and digest and cannot be consumed lightly) has been Judaism related, it's started me thinking about what I seek in religion and in life.

When entering the realm of spirituality, what do I seek? what do I want it to feel like? And how much of myself should I be putting into these questions? Would it be right to seek avenues outside the Christian soil I was grown in just because it doesn't feel right to me now? Or should I persevere, stick with one thing, seek out the best in these waters even if it doesn't resonate with me?

Truly, I find resonance in component parts, in themes, more than I find it in the trappings of specifics and rules. That's where I am right now in any case.