Realizing

I've written a full post's worth of thoughts about my past few days in subject lines alone... in my head. Unfortunately, these happen in fleeting splinters at fleeting moments when the idea isn't quite worth seeking out the means to write it down.

The site got small updates. On the front page I added two note, but only one link. The other change, noted on the front page, is the title of this blog, which I've changed to "progress, uncensored". It's a title that doesn't override the original purpose of the blog: to note changes on my site, but is a more encompassing descriptor. The main new point I want to encompass is the fact that I'm going to post pages from my sketchbook more. Hopefully every day, but more like every time Reagan has the chance to scan doodles from said sketchbook.

As long as a year ago, I was struggling with my focus in life. There were several things I wanted to be, and I wanted to be all of them very well and very soon. I love my game design brain, i love my crafty brain, I love my writing brain, and I love my drawing brain. Four things I wanted to pursue. But going after all of them at the same time stressed me out, and the stress combined with lack of focus made progress grind to a halt

The past few weeks, even more notably the past few days, I've dropped myself out of the normal hustle of trying to accomplish so very much. Some parts were intentional, some were unintentional, and some were motivated by my wonderful husband, but what matters is that in the "end" (so far as the journey to the point where you are currently at is over, even if the traveling has just begun) I've come to a sweet spot.

Life right now resounds well as my time is focused on cooking, house-making, and drawing. Plus a little bit of yoga. Oh, and a few hours of stiff-job working here and there. I've finally become serious about being an artist.

All my ideas are still captured and stored, like fireflies in jars, in a place where they are useful for lighting my way, and writing happens from time to time, but I'm happiest bowing my head to sketchbook, and forging into that wilderness.

Posting here will happen more often as I build momentum and (hopefully) skill, and while I can't expect accolades and comments each time I post, especially because I'm not doing anything impressive yet, even the smallest bits of encouragement and constructive criticism go a long way. Plus, when I am doing big things, you'll be able to say you knew me when. ;D