Stumbling

Despite the massive influxes of wisdom in the past couple days, both from my own mind and the book I read (that caused me to not post last night), I've been plagued more strongly than usual by ennui and a difficulty focusing. Most of this has been blamed on improper sleep last night (head the wrong way, falling asleep without thinking "I'm going to sleep now").

Losing sense of time--not knowing when I went to sleep or when I woke up--is even more discombobulating than simply having an odd schedule, especially in a mode where I'm trying to interact with the world on it's terms more.

Right now I'm struggling and going through the motions. I can't decide if what I need more is some rest before I get ready for tine with family in 5 hours, or some blind discipline to draw more.

For some reason blind discipline sounds more appealing, and not just because I don't have any sketches to post right now. I think I want to put my headphones on and retreat to my own meditative world of pen and paper.